Finding our way

Well it has been 2 weeks it's quiet and we are trying to get back to normal although we will never be normal again.  The feelings come and go  often and often manifest at inopportune times.  The kids go through phases andthis week is anger.  Their anger is of course directed at me so I try not to take it personally. We celebrated Lexi's 16th birthday and it seemed hollow without him although I'm sure he was watching smiling down and he will be with her when she takes her driving test on Thursday. 
The boys played with the 13 year olds this weekend and they hit great if you ask one of John's Friends who was umpiring he said he felt John on the field helping them.  Mike was 3 for 3 on Sunday and Matt 2 for 3 I was very proud.

Finally, I am on a mission the mission gets bigger everyday to get medical practioners to pay attention to their patient's histories and not let things go.  I get more angry that not one of John's Doctors evn thought the cancer could come back.  It makes me believe that people do not understand the magnitude of this disease and how quickly it moves and destroys.  This is my mission and those of you who know me understand that I am not a quitter.  I am just getting my plan together so that this can't happen to another person as John wanted.  If you want to continue to watch this I will be posting my progress.

Thank you for all your continued support!!!